Reflections

Dear Diary,

Waahh..how long has it been since I last pen down my thoughts here, eh? Well, same 'ol lame excuse given by me over and over again when people asked my why I haven't update my precious lil blog - NO TIME! Indeed I got no time to spare nowadays. What with my job, my daughter and my own little precious time for me to wind down and relax after work. I just don't have the "brain" ability to sit down, think and type..hahahahah.

Anyway, since 2009 has closed its door, I think its just appropriate to sit down and reflect on what happened last year.

As most of you may know, I made a HUGE decision last year. But before that, there was a series of event happened in our little family life. We moved from a landed house to an apartment within 3 months and move to KL within 8 months. Maisara started her "schooling" life in Smart Reader early last year. She enjoyed it so much that I was relief of my decision sending her to school even before she turned 3 despite few people telling me that its too early.

My thyrotoxicosis was under control early last year as well. I had a VERY BAD hyperthyroidism late 2008 resulting in me being depressed and almost had a panic attack. Now I am still on medication which is scheduled to be stopped in April. My endocrinologist will then monitor the hormon level and will decide on what step to be taken next.

I found out that I was pregnant with our second child late March last year. Unfortunately, 2 months later I got miscarried. It was a stressful event but if its not meant to be, then its not meant to be. We can always try again..Hehehehe.

On a cheerier note, I was FINALLY employed in August. Tu lah org cakap kan, Tuhan duga kita dengan sesuatu dan Dia bagi kita sesuatu yg kita tak jangka. That's what I call rezeki. But, this employment comes with a BIG sacrifice. My job requires me to station in KL while my hubby is still working in JB. August was the month that I dreaded the most that time. I prayed to God to show me the right thing to do. I took the job with a heavy heart.

August also was the starting point of our long distance relationship. Yes, some of you might think its not a big matter. Ala, sorang JB sorang KL je..bukan jauh pun. Orang lain duduk lagi jauh-jauh. But, not to us. We've been thru thick and thin together. Susah senang kami bertiga. Makan megi ke makan steak ke mmg kami together2. And Maisara is so close to her daddy. It shatters my heart everytime I saw her crying in the middle of the night looking for her daddy and sobbing before she goes to sleep. I had to be strong for her but sometimes I just can't. I don't have the heart of steel like other people. But alhamdulillah, we managed to go thru it and insyaAllah daddy will be with us permanently next month. His company has finally agreed to transfer him to KL. Yippie yay yay!!

OK, enuff about last year. This will be an exciting, cherishable, memorable and hopefully bankable year for us. Our target this year is to buy our own crash pad and will add another family member to the picture..hehehe. Please do pray for us, k.

So, till then, cherish your day, don't fret about the past. Live like you are going to live forever but pray like you are going to die tomorrow.

I hope that I will be able to blog more this year. Thank you to you guys who kept coming to this "sawang" blog. I appreciate it and luv you guys lots!! Mmuahhss!!!

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